Perhaps Unreal turns out to be Real!

It was a unreal life,

A unreal me and a unreal dream,

Roving through those unreal tunnels,

With hope of getting the real soon!!

But

It was nothing but a unreal fantasy,

The unreal characters, the unreal story!!

This feels me so many whiles,

But the real I was never wished to come to light!!

I wandered millions of instants

Thinking its real; rest is mere piece of mucks!!

I trust my soul and followed the trance,

But how could illusions lead me to the right path?

I thought again and again,

To get the answer that was still unseen!!

Is dis what i want to draw my life alike,

Or do i need a real picture throughout the life.

On my way of thinking, night turns in to light,

And an answer is awaiting me to realize.

So here i come out the veil

The real me with no reel!

No more unreality, no more delusion

This is the time to take the real roam!!!

A Battle between Heart and mind—No, perhaps fight between mind vs mind

So after a long break, thoughts caught me again and as always i am not ready how to make a beautiful wreath out of them. Let’s see how i do it.

It’s a beautiful night; in fact i must say nights are always beautiful, peace all around, innocent sleeping faces, lights off and a lovely calmness. Stars are also there but in a packed home, sorry you are not going to enjoy watching them, so here i have to adjust with ceilings and walls. :-P

I want to inscribe everything running inside me but still something is going mistaken. A lot of things perhaps bothering me to come outside and i have to make choice which one should get place.

Well ok I am done. Why should not i write about this dilemma of human heart and mind?

Actually these two are the worst weapons and also greatest hoarder many times. Firstly a war between both of them never stops; secondly you never know which one to follow. 

Seriously I never apprehend the notion why Heart behaves so babyishly or fervently. Perhaps god has put extra sensitive hormones in it. Or is it mind which is more sensible?

So, the confusion is who will decide either i am thinking with my mind or with my heart? :-P

Believe me this is question which is torturing me since the time i started intuiting the things.

They say follow your heart, i say where it is?

I am not clear yet which is mind's solution and which one is of heart.

A very torturing war i must say.

If thinking is task of brain; how can heart do this function? Is not blood pumping its task?  And if heart thinks then what brain's function is all about?
My whole study of biology gets question mark here and i am left with no answer in fact.

Isn't it, its only mind that thinks?
In my opinion there are two parts of mind ( I am not talking about biological classification)
and both of them ponder differently like two perception of a thing i.e. right or wrong.

One part of mind thinks sensitively and other practically. When the sensible part outshines, we calls it thinking from heart.
So is it sufficient to satisfy me?
No, not yet
perhaps I have not yet discovered any supposition and these wandering thoughts will be shattered as such.

What i believe is,
at every decision you have to use your practical mind because sensible part can’t access itself separately, that has to take support in order to give itself a meaning.
So, it’s the practicality which is going to carry the day.

For example-
i think i should do something, I desperately want to execute whatever is running in my mind but i don’t do that. Why? Because, my mind forbade me to do so and finally practical mind takes the lead.

For 2nd example-
if i say i should do it or not?
M I asking my heart (that is sensitive part of mind) to tell me?
Or m I asking my mind to analyze should i do it?

 Then

I follow only the answer given by mind i.e. second part

So, all I want to connote is you are ultimately going to follow your mind, because being a matured human, your senses ask you to analyze the thing.

And at that juncture the question of heart itself gets missing.

Fine, maybe it went quite confusing, and this war is never ever going to solve.
So with no hope to solving the puzzle
i shut up my mind and its thoughts and think something else.

Waiting to get the answer from someone somewhere…..

Have a nice day J

ज़िन्दगी..........

भोर के सूरज से शुरू होती ये कहानी, 
रात के अँधेरे में गुम हो जाती है,
दिन प्रतिदिन ये क्रम चलता  एक दिन ज़िन्दगी ही अस्त  हो जाती है!

एक आशा , एक उम्मीद जन्म  लेती रोज,
कुछ पूरी हो पाती, कुछ दम तोड़ती, कुछ दबा दी जाती है,
ना जाने कितने उत्साह , उमंग और उदासी के बीच , ये ज़िन्दगी जी जाती है!

कोई रोता कोई हस्ता ,
किसी के  होंठो कि मुस्कान झूठी है,
हर कोई भाग रहा  रंग बदलती इस ज़िन्दगी में, 
फिर भी सबकी दौड़ अधूरी है!!

जीवन चाह रहा हर कोई यहाँ, 
पर जीना किसी को आता नही,
हर पल मर रहे लोग  यहाँ, 
पर मौत को कोई पाता नही.!

कल की  कल्पना में उड़ान भरता हर कोई , 
पर बीते कल से कोई निकलता नही,
भविष्य क सपने ऐसे बुने कि 
आज को कोई याद करता नही!!

कोई पूछे मुझसे क्या मतलब इस नैया का जो अंततः डूब जानी  हैं,
क्यों कैसे जीए इस ज़िन्दगी को ,जो खुद ख़त्म हो जानी है!

उत्तर बेशक नही मेरे  पास देने को कि क्यों  ये कहानी  वही पुरानी है?

बस दिल में एक अहसास और आँखों में विशवास है,

माना कि नही मुझे तुझ पर कोई एतबार है, 

पर

कैसी भी हो ज़िंदगी मुझे तुझे से प्यार है!!

तू चाहए रास्ते  को मोड़े, या होंसलो  को तोड़े.

या तू चाहए लुटाना मुझ पर दुःख बार- बार है,

पर

कैसी भी हो ज़िंदगी मुझे तुझे से प्यार है!!!!!!!

God- Your Disguise Character confuses me !!

It happened today when a cartoon movie “My friend Ganesha” took away all my attraction and forced me to think a million times about the drama, this god character does. I definitely must appreciate the coolness of virtual cinema. It is really charismatic. You think of god, you get the god before you. In the movie the Ganesha helps people as he is just another human being residing with the others likewise. Well, it’s not the only movie; some of them have also shown their brilliance by lifting the veil from god making him real.

I thought for a while why can’t he live with us or it could really happen that God would live with us, talk with us, wipe away all the problems. That would certainly have been really cool but this cannot happen in real.

Alas !! It can never be.

One thing that always unanswered me, Puzzled me up

Is god there?

I can even think of the probable answers of why there are seven colors of rainbow? Why the earth only holds the indispensable elements to survive here? But, when it comes to existence of god, my whole cleverness gets questioned. As sometimes yes, he is but at the other no, he is not. And sadly there are no convincing reasons to verify this yes and no. People argue on the existence of god.  Is not that pointless?

They discuss as they have seen him. Mere Bible, Geeta, Quran can’t attest the reality of god. I even speculate who wrote them actually. Did anyone see those writers or these mythological stories have left huge brunt on us that we endow the entire writing with legitimacy?

Well, I doubt the legality of this truth too. And when the god can’t come before me, how can I be so imprudent to acknowledge the existence of god.

 So that moment I decided not to recall him anymore

(As I was lying to myself or to him just for his respond to my action)

Sadly he didn't respond

As he never does still the belief that he is hearing me somewhere keeps me recalling him again and again even after his betray. I lie to myself daily just for him and he said lying is sin. So it’s what he wants me to do or to many more fatalities of his so called blessing. Why don’t you answer me, why can’t you see the pain inside?

Yes God, it’s you whom I bear in mind more than my breath but sadly you never heard and I know you won’t do.

And the bitter truth

Still I have to recall you forever!

Well many of us pass through the same state of mind, where there is no option except to ask the god as why don’t you do something (as he will come and do wonder). No matter how much IQ we human being have, It also does not matter, How much technologically advanced we human being are,

We are still unable to solve the puzzle named god. We can reach up to mars .We can find out life under the sea, but its god’ s identity who fails every bit of knowledge of human beings. Seems like god puts a challenge before us-

Find out me if you can.

But we can’t, and we never did.

And they said god is there

is it?

Either prove your validity of statement or just not recall the god.

I surely need to praise this god character, which without its presence keeps his charisma alive.

He is the real marionette jogger, who is amazingly rolling us.

We don’t know him but People say he is everywhere

Is not it something I already know? I can bet it’s not the human power which is operating the universe. It’s not the human power, which is in charge of the rain, winter or spring.  It’s not the human power that controls the blossoming of flowers, blowing of breezes.

Yes I know

No one but the supernatural power is doing this.

But where is It.?

When everything, he is driving is visible to us than why does not the driver appear before us?

Is it-

He plays a disguised act and we all redundantly accompany him? He had made all of us so dependent upon him that He is the only character who is sure to be recalled at last.

So, no option other than being puppet of his hand, I concluded without any conclusion. I ended up my thoughts and have admitted that itinerating for the answer if god is there, will prove nothing except my stupidity.

But yes, When People say, god does right, I would definitely say, everything you do can’t be right always. You should need to review of your actions as you make us to evaluate ours.

In hope of seeing you sometime,

Now I stop wandering

So god

 Keep in mind, your answers will be waited J :P